Archive for July, 2007

Almost A Month…

Tuesday, July 24th, 2007

It has almost been a month since I last posted anything.  It seems that the time has been so filled with emotions and happenings that it has flown by.  We are still at Tamra and Dave’s home, but we are preparing to go back our own house this weekend.  We have been working on getting their home cleaned up and the room for the older boys finished while they are away on a Dune trip up in Idaho.  We are hoping to have their home ready, the room done, and us out by the time they have come back on Saturday.  We appreciate them opening up their home to us during this time.  What wonderful friends. 

While we have been here some things have happened that have managed a bit of an emotional upheaval in my life.  My husband had put in his last day at his job.  He is now officially un-employed and working on finishing those things which he had to keep putting off due to the demands of his work.  It has been nice to have him home.  We are discussing what his next move is going to be regarding his career.  We both feel really good about this and feel that there are innumerable possibilities open to us right now. 

My Grandmother passed away this month.  I’m sure she is happier now with her husband and her children who had passed on before.  She is no longer in any pain or discomfort, and she isn’t lonely for her best friend anymore either.  I do miss her.  She was a great lady who raised great children.  She was my last grandparent to pass away, and that also saddens me.  Tamra’s mom sang The Impossible Dream from Man of La Mancha for her funeral.  I love that song, and I was one of many who cried while it was sang.  My Grandma loved that song.  Which is why it was sang, of course.  I look forward to meeting her again.

 We have decided to take our home off of the market for a time.  We still feel like we are supposed to move, but we have decided we need to do some work on the home and yard and we are not sure how much work it will turn out to be.  It has also been hard not being able to just be a family when we feel the need because we always need to be ready in case somebody wanted to see the house.  I want to be able to focus more on our children than on the house.  I need that.  I think they do, too.

I just finished reading Persuasion by Jane Austen.  I love that book.  It is an interesting look at when and why people should marry, but it is even more about the type of character a person should have.  At least that is my opinion.  Is it better to be persuadable or to be firm?  There are, of course, extremes to both that are unwise.  The key is to be persuadable when you should be persuaded and to be firm when you should be firm.  How do we know?  by listening to the Spirit.  If we strive to be humble and teachable then He will let us know when we should be persuadable and when we should be firm.  Not that it spoke of that in the book, but that is what I got from it.

Right now I am researching the Great Depression, Black Tuesday, and I think I need to pick up The Fourth Turning again.  I also will be researching the history of Russia and China and how they became communist states.  I am also going to start reading Machiavelli’s The Prince for a book club.  And I have started reading Saving On A Shoestring which I just picked up from the bookstore for $2.  And while we are on the subject of books, I am glad the Harry Potter series is over.  I loved the seventh book, and I am grateful for the closure.  :)  Tamra teased me that I was reading it too fast and that I should slow down and “savor” it.  LOL.  Nah!  I can go back and revisit the book if I need to savor it.  I finished it in a day, and then I could move on and not feel completely caught up in it anymore.  Perhaps I need to learn more patience.  Oh, well. 

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She’s One!

Friday, July 6th, 2007

Yesterday was Losahina’s first birthday.  It was a fun day, and she is such a cutie.  I bought her some cute clothes and The Very Hungry Caterpillar book and stuffed toy.  Grandma and Grandpa gave her the softest and cutest stuffed girrafe.  She loves it.  She cuddles it up to her face and walks around with it.  I remember so vividly, it seems, the day she was born.  The piddly labor that had me frustrated and concerned.  The pushing that had me working and straining.  The struggle after to stop myself from blaming her for being breach.  Knowing consciously that she didn’t choose to be breach anymore than I chose for her to be, but having those feelings start creeping up just the same.  I was expecting them, and I was sure to stop them when they came, so they didn’t last long.  But they were there, which caused me to feel bad for feeling that way in the first place.  She was such a sweet and easy baby right from the start.  She still is.  She is a joy to have in our family, and I am grateful for the opportunity to be her mother.

Happy Birthday Losahina!

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Been A While

Sunday, July 1st, 2007

Sorry it has been a while since my last post.  It’s been pretty crazy here.  Of course, when is it not, lol. 

We have moved out of our house until the end of July to keep it “immaculate” in case anyone comes by.  This is supposed to be the “hot” season in real estate because people are looking to move between the school years.  We’ll see how it goes.  We are staying with our AWESOME friends Tamra and Dave.  We are finishing some rooms in their basement to say thank you.  It has been pretty good so far, hopefully they feel the same way. 

Julie is 12 years old, now!  I thought I was ready for this but she is leaving for camp in just over a week!  Aack!  She will be gone for almost 4 days!  I know that she will be just fine, but I am going to go through major withdrawal over here.  😉  I know she will have a blast.  I loved girls camp.  Loved it!  And I think she has some of my genes.  lol

Losahina has been walking since she was 10 months.  Just absolutely cruising!  *sob*  She knows how to break a mother’s heart.  She is going to be 1 year on Thursday July 5th.  One year!  *sigh*  She is sooooo cute.  And I am not in the least bit prejudiced, let me tell you.  Of course I’m not!  Mothers are completely unbiased and objective when it comes to their own children, right? 

I’m ready for another one. Of course it’s not just up to me.  It is also up to the Lord and my husband.  But I’m willing.  We’ll see what lies in store.

We went to see the Les Miserables production that was here in Salt Lake.  Wow!  I loved it!  So did Sione and the girls.  We took Julie and Tarina with us and it was such a neat experience.  At least it was for me, and I think it was for Sione and the girls from how they spoke about it.  I still am dreaming in Les Mis musical, if that tells you anything.  I cried….quite a bit.  The story just moves me so much.  I love the book.  I love the musical.  It is just one big “heart full” of Wow for me.  This was the second time Sione and I have seen it, and we just love it.  Oh, did I say that I loved it already?  Well, one more time can’t hurt.  I love Les Miserables.  Just to make sure I was clear about that.

I have been reading more of the Prelude to Glory series.  I have never finished it, and am reading the last book right now.  With the 4th of July this coming Wednesday these books have put me in quite an emotional and grateful mood.  I always tear up during the songs they play during the fireworks.  The Star Spangled Banner, and that one country song that includes the line “and I’d gladly stand up next you and defend her still today.”  You know which one I mean.  But I have been tearing up during the pledge of allegiance lately, too.  Of course seeing my first flag retiring ceremony on Thursday has helped I’m sure.

Speaking of Thursday, that was the first annual Liberty Girls Summer Retreat.  I was a co-chair for the event, and I will admit to some rather high stress levels as a result.  It was fantastic, though, and completely worth it in my opinion.  It was AWESOME!!!!!  And from what the rest of the people involved said they thought so, too.  The girls seemed to love it, and I think we met our goals to make it fun and inspiring.  Although if I am still around and trying to help next year I have NO idea what we will come up with to make it different and yet still fun and inspiring.  We’ll have to see.  Maybe I won’t even be here.  Although leaving AYLI is something that hurts my heart.  I really love that organization and what it does for so many children and youth. 

I am going to head off to bed now.  Good night.

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